Are they right?

’shes a difficult girl..if she had done what she did to me towards other guys they might have just screamed at her and say eff off..but not me..I love her to much to do any of that..she’s knows that I love her..but she ain’t doing anything..and that’s what is hurting me alot..she used to purposely hurt me alot..but not doing anything hurts more..everytime when I see a couple holding hands I’ll say why that couldn’t be us..I’ve tried all I could do, I really really tried..but she pretends as if nothing happens..to her I’m just a friend wasting my time trying her heart..but to me it’s different’

I texted my god-sis this, I didn’t really update her alot about my life. She replied the following

‘ Just cheer up. Take everyting easy. If she’s nt touched by what you’ve done, then SHE DOESNT DESERVE YOU ! A girl will melt somehow.unless she’s bent NOT TO be in rship.’

Is she right? Has sherry been right all along? I don’t know. Nurie said always respect a girls decision, but ive respected her decision, ive laid down waiting quietly and patiently all this while. Alot of other people said something similar as well, but I don’t know what to do.

Should I listen to them soo that I’ll live or should listen to my heart and faith and let them take my life? I don’t know, I really2 don’t know. If I listen to my heart I know one thing, and that I love her. In 3 days it reaches 9 months, god help us.

Its not what i wanted, its what i needed

It’s not what I wanted, it’s what I needed. You should know very well what happen to me, I told you nearly everything. Everynight before I go to bed I feel the emptiness in my heart. It took alot of battering even before you came around. & now, what it needs it’s to be love by someone. When I had to make the difficult choice of not telling you that I liked you, I tried to keep it to myself for as long as I could. But the tension proved too much, I just had to let it out. I knew what I got myself into when I committed myself. But now, I don’t see this ending, I tried everything that I could to win your heart, it didn’t work. & I guess it’ll never work. You always tell me that there’s other girls out there that are better than you. But the girl i love is you, not anybody else. My heart needs you right now, it’s needs your love. I don’t know if I’ll let go someday. Maybe when Im ready, when I want to let go, when i have the courage to let go, maybe I will. But I don’t think that will happen. Baby, my heart needs your love right now & I miss you badly. I wish I could hold you tightly in my arms right now.

Bright light in the sky

The sky has been bright the past 2 nights. The moon has been shining soo beautifully for the past 2 nights. It’s the turn of the decade, and yet we’re no where better off than where we were months ago. I still think of you everyday, I keep you close to my heart everyday & I know that i still love you. But I know, you still won’t accept my love. It’s heart breaking to accept the fact, but it’s your choice, i’ll respect it. I can give you love, I can give you anything there is, but i can’t give you happiness that you want. You’re turning 18 in 24 days, from then on, I don’t know what will happen of us. I did what I could, I tried my best to win your heart, I can only do soo much. I fear rejection soo much that I dare not ask for your love. All I can do is wait. I know you don’t want me to, but please understand, it’s my choice. Don’t blame yourself for what had happen, I didn’t blame you, I just blame myself. I know what I say won’t mean much to you, but I just wanna let it out. It’s time you learn to make your own decisions, I know I won’t stay by yourside forever. Fate brought us closer to each other, love tore us apart. I just wished things could have been better and that we wouldn’t need to argue nearly every other week about the same thing. Till god take you away from me, I’ll keep my promise.

You’re my escape

You’re my escape from this hell i call my life. I’ve been trying to convince you for the past 8 months or so but to no avail. There’s alot of secrets between us, it’s not that difficult to figure it out, i know you keep things from me. The year is coming to an end but our love story isn’t, the end is no where near. Our personalities clash, we both think that we are both right. I think that’s partly why we used to argue alot about this on going thing. Either of us has to give in in order for this to end. I’ve tried to give in, but I realized i love you too much to do so. When I said that we would go our separate ways, I meant it. I want you to have a happy life. But now it showed, I can’t live without you by my side. You’re the person that keeps me going on in life. I’ve been concealing the fact that I’m heartbroken when I go out everytime, it’s something I’ve grown used to. I’ve tried to win your heart but failed miserabely. I won’t stop trying. Either I ride out this pain in my broken heart or let it take me away from everyone I love. Baby, you’re my escape

I dont why im doing this

God, tell me why am I doing this? It’s been months, yet things haven’t changed, in fact I thing it’s gotten worse. Is this the stupid lil thing we call love that is driving me to even wait for her, is it? Is it stupid or silly to wait for the girl I love? Baby if I wanted to let go of you I would have done it already, if I can I would but I can’t. I don’t have the choice to make anymore. I made my choice and that is I want to be with you, if time hasn’t showed that I really do love you than god help me please. I made my choice to go down this road, I hope you’ll make the same choice, I’ll wait for it, till then